Thursday, December 21, 2006 '
Prehistoric Monster Syndrome DUNDUNDUN!!
1st day of it.My back hurts.Is it cos of my cramps?i dunnoe.haha.haha.hahahha.gtg bye.
Sunday, December 17, 2006 '
Wwwaadd??
She aint hvin a crush on that girl anymore.She herself dosent noe wad happened,maybe she jus realises tt its no use.Anyway,She found out tt her fren's fren,who liked her,had a crush on She.Well She was shocked.Cos She didnt expect tt comin.They've only met once.She dosent really noe her..Well She is still unsure of things,Shes just gonna leave it 2 time..Until then,She wld be waitin until her computer is repaired.=)
Friday, December 15, 2006 '
Movies,Time travel..
Hmm,what happens wen u combine movies and time travel and movies into ur life?She smtimes think that that could happen.Well i her dreams..lmao.But if movies,it can be possible..We can just try and make a movie out of her life.What shes goin through,what shes feeling,well theres alot thats goin through my mind rite now,but i just cant seem 2 explain it..She has a crush on her,but after She thought 2 her self,its all jus soo wrong.Not in a disgusting way or anything,but just wrong!And this has nothing to do with any L movies she has seen.Well its just a crush..it'll go away,She herself dosent noe wad She finds in her..Counting down the days 2 the new term and a new addition 2 the fmily!!=p
Saturday, December 9, 2006 '
Shes blamed,but hey she 4gets wad happened
She was maybe all the time blamed 4 the things that She didnt do.But She kinda gets used 2 it.She just forgets about wad happen and She moves on.The ppl arnd her just dont realise that u noe.Last time She used 2 cry,but the ppl arnd her jus thinks shes a crybaby.But wad bullcrap.Shes angry and nt trying to show her anger,therefore that led 2 tears.Soon She thought to herself,"WELL FUCKSHIT PPL,U THINK IM NT TRYIN MY BEST??U JUST DON UNDERSTAND ME U PPL ARE JUST FULL OF BULLCRAP!!".Well after awhile she still remembers wad They expected of her.Recently,She started 2 slit her wrists.She was just full of rage,anger that She started doing the unexpected of her.But there was/were smone and sm ppl who gave her hope,encouragement to stop wad Shes doin.She went on with her life,tryin and tryin but kept failing.But there were those who kept on telling her 2 go on (and to her,wasnt all from the house).She really tried her best 2 succeed,but yet she failed.But although she failed,she failed with better feeling.She really knew that this time she really did her best.And so her teacher came up 2 her and said,"u noe u did pretty well..Just that u hv 2 control ur "kancheongness"*."She was pretty happy 2 hear that.She is still goin 4 the same goal,but in a new year and a newly formed person..AND SHE WILL TRY 2 MANAGE HER ANGER.=p
Saturday, December 2, 2006 '
Is it just her,or is it also influence?
Well She dosen't really know if its just her or is it also because of influence.She tried 2 talk to smone and tried hinting the person that she has this attraction towards the same gender.And her bro started talkin about the lesbian friends that he has and what the common case why women turn 2 women and give up on guys.They force them to do things and stuff like that(She wasnt really listenin=p)But in her heart She was goin like "But how do u explain this feeling that im hvin?I mean i don hv that feelin 2wards the guys.Never,weird but seriously NEVER.."
Friday, December 1, 2006 '
"She"
She just kept wondering and wondering,"is anything like goin on in my life?I feel soo,empty.."But at certain times She will go "wow yea smthin is goin on..".But that feelin lasts only 4 a short time she guesses.But the problem with She is that sm things are really complicated 4 her 2 explain.But She knows that shes nt the only person who thinks that she has a complicated life,there are loads of other people who lead a more complicated life than her.But She wonders,wads gonna happen 2 her as each day passes by,will her self esteem drop?But she has overcome that problem,or maybe nt..Will she be able 2 overcome the challenges that she wld be facing when the new school term starts?(Well that I really hope she can!!wooo ehm)Will she be able to find out that weird feeling that shes been hvin 2wards the same gender?(She thinks shes gay cos she keeps hvin a weird kinda feelin 2wards girls older than her 2 be specific but not 2 guys..Shes tomboyish though,but dosent think shes a butch.Told ya its kinda complicated..haha)Well lets just leave it to time and see how things go..till then,heres a song lyric excerpt=p
"Girl?I luv u so,just look in my eyes they'll tell u where this could go yeah.."
Luv u so by Natalie
And its suppose 2 be boy i luv u so hehehe
