Sunday, April 29, 2007 '
OMG OMG OMG!!!!I didnt really study for history.muahahaha I'm screwed.Man,I had a dream last night bout her again.I was in one of her lessons,just listening 2 her..wow nice..And suddenly my alarm clock rang!haha almost all my dream are like tt ok.And a song appeared in my head,an enrique iglesias song.i was like OMG.Cos each time i see her its either cupid's chokehole or balisong or sm other songs.haha weird yet funny.
ok soo heres how the song goes:"And now that U're gone,I just wanna be with u.."that really like describes some part of what im feeling man.gosh.My brain is really screwed!!shit.haha well i hope shes gonna appear at camp.and i wanna go out wth her!!ahaha then me and Expired Milk can ask her THE QUESTION.muahahaha
Friday, April 27, 2007 '
MAN.2day was my 1st paper.It went on just fine..I hope it turns out fine.haha and 2day is the last day that i'll get 2 see my lit teacher for lesson.soo sad.my english teacher may be leaving too.Y does it seem like everyone is going away?and ive nt met my dear friends for like how long i dunnoe.
my goodness,ive like had a crush on my lit teacher.And now that shes going away,Im missing her..Haha still remember the time wen my friend told her I liked some girl and that Im looking out for her.And she thought it was her!serious shit,when she said it,her face was like so serious.the face that i know.I told her no and she was like phew really??
but in actual fact,i did have a crush on her.haha shes like one of those cool teachers la!she rox.woohoo.I didnt feel anything much when it was her lessons.like nth soo deep.i just like listening 2 her.and that i enjoy every moment when it was her class,not thinking of when this is gonna end.But as the exams came close,I started feeling weird.really2 weird.I'll really be missing her.And as a tribute,I'll continue with lit next year.HAHAHA.I like lit.Its like the only subject that i can really express emotions.
Soo yea..i will do my best.For now,lets just listen 2 the songs that remind me of her..
AND I REALLY HOPE THAT WE WILL GO OUT SOON K!cos the previous plan wasnt successful..hahaha.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007 '
Man.Its like 2 more days 2 the 1st paper!!AHHHHRRR!!!!IM HVIN BAD DREAMS.thats y you will see me being in a state of stoning in class.not enough sleep.INSOMNIA!AHHHHRR!!bUT HEY,after that is camp!and after camp is June hols!!AHHHHR!!WOOO!!!Im really trying 2 keep cool as i can..but there is something inside me tt needs 2 burst out of the anxiety!ahhhr!!I didnt study tt well.im screwed!AHHHHHRR!!
hoohoohoo coool..ok i came up with smthing:As i sat there,sucking my <3>
Sunday, April 22, 2007 '
My goodness,wad happened 2 my cbox??AHHR.
Today i feel so.IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE SAME PROBLEM.OVER AND OVER AGAIN.Im sure some ppl are really sick and tired of entertaining me.Saying the same advice over and over again.Well lemme tell u smthing,im a complicated person 2 understand,and u noe wad?i cant really even understand myself perfectly!Im nt studying,especially for math eventhough midyears are close.REALLY CLOSE.I cant afford 2 fail anything,I need 2 do really well for things like lit.I really need 2 study for science history.AHHHRRRROK OMG,ITS GETTING 2 ME.I cant let this get 2 me,I'll go absolutely crazy!!I really hope i buck up.I need 2 wake up now!!SOMEONE HELLLPPP!!!!!!!!!!GET ME OUT OF THIS DILEMMA!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s,its close 2 the midyears,soo im nt thinking of anyone,just me!=p
Thursday, April 19, 2007 '
GUESS WHAT?!Im over her!YES!woohoo.yea all thanks 2 my milk.
I felt tt i really had 2 get rid of her off my mind.SOO.on her birthday,my milk expired.soo yea.she expired to.Haha.Now what I've got 2 solve is how 2 stop the guys from saying i like her.haiz..im gonna flung my math!!woohoo and i think my teacher has given up on me.so wth.ahh gtg..AND expired milk,if ure reading this,the whole world dosent know i like u ok.=)
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 '
WOO.HELLO.=)im feeling soo random,confused.Y?I dunnoe.I feel as if i always have the same problems,over and over again.Going round in circles.Each and every single day.I feel so helpless?haha.my mid year's coming and trying real hard,my best 2 study.But smtimes,i just cant bring myself to.Man this song goes with my mood.haha.A friend intro-ed me 2 a band called Flyleaf.Im like finding metal bands with female leads.Nt cos im female,but cos i think its interesting.and how cool their screams are.wow.haha.but im currently listening 2 a mellowed song,its called believe in dreams.So i thought is also nt bad.Well ALL the songs are nice.i luv em.they rock.they help me mellow down,get rid of the stress,the urge 2 cut,and maybe the thoughts of her.Well im getting on with life and im seriously over her.
sighs,hopefully i'll buck up.yeah.
Band shirts,black jeans,black sneakers,am i unoriginal?=p
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 '
OOk soo se was nt using me at all.Sorry.And u know what?im soo gonna screw up my mid year exams!gawd.im saying that and YET im aint doin anythin bout it man.im soo soo dead.Sometimes i just have that heck care attitude and then i'll like ugghhh.I noe,im soo STOOPID.haha cant i be any stoopid?well im goin now..goin..still no phone..ahh sobsob
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 '
GREAT JUST GREAT.My phone's been confiscated.Actually 2 be honest,i didnt really feel anything.Just that at the moment,im worrying on how 2 comunicate with people and stuff.And at that time when my phone was confiscated,i actually felt like "shit!i need 2 pass Her the hacksaw!"But then after awhile,i was like,"come on Yasmin,wake up and dont be stupid.Its just a stupid hacksaw for some person who dosent wanna waste her money and use me of what I've got."Soo yea,i didnt really panic.So i walked around the canteen 2 find her.Anyway its cos of her phonecall that my phone was confiscated ok.Im a person who'll get easily distracted by ANYTHING.Soo yea.Its not only cos of you that i picked up my phone.And ok now,lets be honest and i wanna get it out once and for all.I think ur'e just using me for certain things.WAIT!dont start cursing or anything.Well ok maybe u just dont have the intention of using me cos anyway i was the one who told you that i had the hacksaw.And you know if hear my friends saying your name just like today,I didnt tell the WHOLE world ok.They just got 2 know about it SLOWLY.SO yea.I told them not 2 say your name cos I have nothing to do with YOU at ALL ok!AND look,I've really realised how STUPID Iv'e been to tell you ok.And im really over you.I know you are not feeling anything,its just ME being PARANOID and stuff.But i just wanted to get some things outta my chest and i really dont wish 2 talk to YOU even online.SOO,LIKE AS IF SHES GONNA READ MY BLOG!STOOPID ME,BUT AT LEAST I GOT IT OFF MY CHEST OK!!OH AND IF YOU are reading this,erm ok i dunnoe wad 2 say.Just whatever ok!if u really wanna talk just say it on MSN or smthing,but i'll never gurantee that i'll answer or anything..YASMIN!STOP BEING STUPID!GGGRRRRR
Sunday, April 8, 2007 '
OK THATS IT,IM FED UP WITH MY SKIN.hehe gonna change soon.and the 1st song was downloaded by me.huahaha.Yesterday i was feeling really2 sick.i had this very bad headache.bodyaches ugh.But thks 2 panadol acti-fast,i was cured!huahahaha and 2morow i would have 2 break her lock for her.hopefully i can help in ANY way.ok i think i shld really go now.write more on the weekend.=)
Friday, April 6, 2007 '
OK.she DID call me.SO wth.ANYWAY,didnt get 2 capture anything during the sand castle thingie..and i look like a 'zebra'.all of us suntanned and i wore my glasses and u can see the mark clearly.omg..we didnt win,but hey,we did our best!=)and we had fun.haha stoopid guys poured water on me and i was like damn wet.but thks 2 the LONG prize giving ceremony.i dried off.
You noe,weirdly,i didnt think much of her 4 the past few days..maybe cos i didnt see her that much,but when i saw her at the sandcastling thingie,i was like,HAA HER..but i was nt soo deep or wadever.And i kept looking at her.Feeling nothing but i just wanna look at her.Then today,i got 2 just see her face for the longest time ever.Actually it was my mistake,i switched on my webcam 2 show her the size of the hacksaw and she switched her cam on too!I wanted 2 type no really,but i was already 'hypnotized'.HAHA.I think its just me:i realise tt we like do,hv some same things or wadever.i dunnoe wadd im talkin about now.HAHA.SO wadever it is tts sm kinda sign.When me and smone does the same thing at the same time or has like the same thing,we are only meant 2 be close/good friends cos normally,with those type of ppl,i get along well.Nt cos of the fact of the reason stated above.Just tt we get along pretty quite well.OK my words are jumbled up 2day,im hvin flu..im gonna be sick..ugh.
But dont worry.i'll make it thru school..i'll try..=)
Thursday, April 5, 2007 '
je pense que je ne suis pas complètement au-dessus de toi, mais n'importe ce que, je..
haha trying to learn french,i hope i get 2 have proper lessons instead of the net..Im feeling really weird on the outside and the inside.On the outside:PMS,backaches,symptoms of flu,feverish ugh.
On the inside:I feel like giving up.I feel like im going 2 hv a problem about my self esteem.I feel all mixed up.(and this has nth 2 do with her)
If its about her;i feel rather stupid for even liking her.stupid enough to even tell her.But i just cant seem to get her off completely.And you've heard this like alot of times i presume.But at least i dont go around and like "y cant she be mine??"tt kinda stuff ya noe.i think tts stupid.
She like apologised 2 me for flirting with the one she likes,I mean hey,i didnt even feel anything wen i saw her.OMG TTS A GD SIGN!well anyways,everybody has their own lives.I DONT CARE.sobsob,do i really mean it?well tt,i'll decide 4 myself.And i still think i really dreamt that she called me,SERIOUSLY.Im nt joking.WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD SHE CALL ME??i mean she clve just sms or wadever..and i didnt really remember clearly wad she asked..well BRRR im cold,gonna go and rest..
I think im not completely over you,but no matter what,i will..
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Ughhh i feel soo sickk..im gonna have flu soon,hvin pms and my back hurts and im hving bad headaches.wth.i really dunnoe wads going on.And yesterday i dreamt that she wld call me,and seriously the next morning she did.hmm or maybe i was just still dreaming.I dont really care,cos y on earth wld she wanna call me?she cldve just smsed me.So yea i think i was dreaming.ugh i forgot wad i wanted 2 write..maybe i'll remember it soon.
AND AMALINA WONT TELL ME WAD HAPPENED THAT TIME!TELL ME!!!
