Thursday, May 31, 2007 '
Why am I nt goin out?
No $$?
I dont think so.I still hv my ezlink.
Maybe 2 shut everyone up and tt way I wont get myself in trouble?
Im feeling soo damn fuffing pathetic.Now,I'd rather stay at home.
Im nt even goin out with my family.Not tt i dont want to.I dont feel like goin out.
Why am I feeling so pathetic?
I feel so LOW.
Somebody,anybody,take me smwhere,anywhere.Just so I dont feel so,LOW.
OH YAY MONDAY!I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY!!!
will it turn out fine?
i hope it will nyahahahahaha
gosh i really feel soo damn pathetic.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007 '
Feeling soo bored now...feel like goin out,but i jus cant,nt after wad happened..well i will go out,soon..jus nt sure where to go,wad 2 do and with who...
haha yesterday was another project for me,i cooked for my friends!haha it was nt actually jus sm spicy pasta..but i dunnoe whether its nice or nt..i dunnoe if ppl were lying 2 me and said it was..hahaha.
haha yesterday b4 i went for my bbq,met llod aneehc and the same thing happened.I passed her pasta and we were like ok..then i sit down there like what the fook.i really really really dunnoe wad 2 say 2 her u noe..just sat down there and stared back at my reflection and hers?hahaha.
but i felt really pathetic cos like she sat there with me and when i took the train,she went hm too.When i was inside the train i was like,SHIT!shldve like gone for a walk or T-A-L-K 2 her!well too late..
And now im like,ok i aint never gonna go out with her no more.
But on 2nd thought,maybe its only been like 2-3 times we went out?
i really feel weird cos im like nt used 2 this kinda thing,like goin out with a person and we dont talk much and stuff..its just soo,Q-U-I-E-T.im 2 wild 2 get use 2 quietness.That was the first time i went out on a "quiet outing"..soo basicly,im paranoid.hehehe.but maybe its my fault 2 for nt starting a conversation or something.
hahaha im sooo soooorryyyy for being sooo damn fucking paranoiiddd.i need a run.
Saturday, May 26, 2007 '
HAHA wasted my time cmin for family day cum sports day 2day.nt for school.
and maybe i wasted my time yesterday too..but heck i got 2 watch pirates!haha Keira Knightly..but i got into trouble.wadever..u noe yesterday,i felt weird.I felt like im goin out with a total stranger and the whole thing was boring cos we didnt talk much.Maybe its cos i dont always go out with her and therefore we dont hv much 2 talk about?well i dunnoe..
well if we do go out again and stuff,maybe i wldnt be as boring as i wld be..man ive got 2 get rid of this habit of accompanying ppl whenever they needed 2 go out..y did i even agree 2 go out anyways??! gosh.
anyway gonna start a so called band with Nis!haha and ive asked cheena doll if she wanted 2 join..well she saved us the trouble from cracking our heads!hehehe ok well i hope i can brush up on my drumming man!!
Thursday, May 24, 2007 '
HAIZ..Results 2day..i scored well 4 languages and literature but i got a U for the rst of the subs!WTF.From now,im really gonna try and change.
AH PFFS can i ever f***ing change myself??its just words.actions speak louder than words.I REALLY REALLY DAMN HELL WANNA F***ING CHANGE MYSELF!!i dunnoe y i find it soo hard..
Well i guess the camp really made me think this deep.My thinkings hv really been deep,nt like the usual i wanna give up,y? kinda thing.i regret,i really regret for my way of thinking.
but really,now,CAN I REALLY CHANGE MYSELF??
tts the big question..
Wednesday, May 23, 2007 '
YASMIN!URGH!!k elearning=soo NOT doin..i did some only and i havent started on math and sci.and ive yet 2 finish my MT.and do i really need 2 do the subs tt we're nt takin next term??gawd.i am soo damn dead.
SEE,can i EVER f***ing change my life??im suppose 2 change,i promised myself and now ive broken my promise...2 myself!wads worst?i caught me lying 2 myself..haha ok tt was from a song.
urgh damn fed up la.id rather go 2 skool rite now and get out.
URRGGHHH
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 '
GAWD!!ELEARNING SUX 2 THE CORE!2 THE MAX!FISH MAN!
especially maths ok instructions say go 2 sec 3 maths and study smthing there.but under my subjects theres no mathematics sec 3 or wadever!how 2 study?go sec 2 maths oso don hv.and now i dunnoe how 2 do my assignments.gosh y mus it always be maths.forget it,i'll nt be doin it.
Monday, May 21, 2007 '
MAN.I feel like goin 2 camp again.haha.soo fun.Now,for the next 3 days,we're like doin this online school thingy where we learn online and do tons of work.bwahahaha.now im like doin my malay blog and i like dunnoe wad 2 write.but my attitude is a lil bit diff now.im gonna do all my work=)hehe
and now im stuck and obssessed with the new maroon 5 song.write more later..
oh and kak Shaz,u saw my blog page and i see tt u forgot 2 leave me a tag..hmm..hahahas
Friday, May 18, 2007 '
WOOHOOHOO!IM HOME!!YAY!!Camp was cool i guess.Its like a survival camp but not like boot camp.err ok nvm.anyways i had fun.I hiked Bt Timah hill again!haha but this time we went 2 a different route.I walked behind and ppl like thought smthing is wrong but i just purposely walked behind.Maybe cos i wanna get away from smone who just keeps asking certain things eventhough its been said clearly..haha.Our instructor was okla.But smtimes i feel like we are bullying her cos like she keep on trying 2 talk and nobody wld listen tt kinda thing..MAN too bad didnt take pics.I brought cam but didnt take,cos like my batts flat and the guy at 7-11 gave me a AA batt instead of AAA.ahh well the memories wld still be inside me.
After this camp,i feel like theres something inside me tt has changed.Like a certain part of my mindset is changed.Like i've been trying 2 find tt ME inside but i jus cldnt find it.I feel like ive changed in a sense tt i am able to put the negative thoughts away from me.But like ppl say;no use talking if u dont do the actions.Im just nt sure if i can like use these things tt i feel wen the next term starts.haiz..tired..
anyways i'll remember wad my instructor told me and conquer one of my negative points..=D
Monday, May 14, 2007 '
WOW.2morow's camp!haha.i dunnoe whether 2 feel excited or wad la.Now im like worrying.haha a girl will always be a girl.im hvin my period and im like wondering how many shorts i hv.im worrying bout clothes mostly.haha well im gonna pack now..
Sunday, May 13, 2007 '
UGH.wth is happening in here??
well currently,i dont know what im feeling.im just apathetic.or maybe its the the rush of hormones in my body.muahahaha.1 more day 2 camp..im gonna start packing 2morow.nyahaha
nites..
Saturday, May 12, 2007 '
Monday, May 7, 2007 '
OOO wad happened here??oh well.i feel like theres smthing inside me tt wants 2 find smthing but i just dunnoe wad 2 find online already!haha and im finally gonna join sm form of martial art,silat!hhaahaha yay man yay.finally.soo betta watch out,i may just be wacking u if u irritate me.HAHA JOKING2
Saturday, May 5, 2007 '
Ok I dunnoe wads up with blogger.
I currently feel irritated.cos some ppl think tt if tt group of ppl think they listen 2 a certain band,some ppl dont.I dunnoe i jus cant tolerate it no longer.yeayea i do listen 2 gay songs smtimes but that dosent like mean i dont listen 2 those kinda things la.
and once,i asked smone bout the lyrics he put on is profile.we were talking about it.then he said he got the song from smone else.then smone just says "oh his taste of music is the same as her la".HEY seriously she dosent even know anything.like gawd.just cos tt particular girl listens 2 those kinds of bands dosent mean shes the only one k.
Friday, May 4, 2007 '
u know what?i don really know myself after all.I mean im in the process of finding out..My friend says im a good listener,but i dunnoe.cos i don really involve myself with wads goin arnd.the gossips and stuff.i just dunnoe why.but anyways this question's on my mind;how can ppl find me a trustworthy person and a good listener when i don really trust the ppl in school?well maybe i'l find out soon enough.As for now,I'd like 2 dedicate this song 2 the girl whom i still like(d),dont freak out im over u,we're good right?haha.anyways shes CRAZY FOR THIS GIRL..haha my words may nt be of any help but im just trying 2 help.I always try 2 do tt 2 everyone arnd me..Soo chill yea..;)here u can sing along if u want too,it kinda helped me when i liked u,soo i hope it helps u too?haha chill always..But dont get ice-cold!haha
She rolls the window downAnd sheTalks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I dont know why
But shes changed my mind
Chorus:Would you look at herShe looks at meShes got me thinking about her constantly
But she dont know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if shes figured outIm crazy for this girl
She was the one to hold me
The nightThe sky fell down
And what was I thinking whenThe world didnt end
Why didnt I know what I know now
Chorus
Right nowFace to faceAll my fearsPushed asideAnd right nowIm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you
Chorus 2x
'
Yay.all done,just the music.its cmin soon.haha
soo 2day was my last paper.dnt.i didnt finish it.
damn am i screwed.i cant make it.im a GONER.I practicaly screwed up everything!lets just leave it 2 time and then i'll get my results.
Thursday, May 3, 2007 '
YAY.new blogskin finally.i found smthing else rather than cbox.i'll update 2morow.
I found my long lost bro!haha we hv quite a number of things in common.soo cool.HAHA and Expired Milk,or shld i call her now,Cheena Doll,is CCRRAAAAZ-ZZYY over tt choir girl whom i see in the bus almost every morning,who is also her classmate.hahaahh gtg
Wednesday, May 2, 2007 '
Muhaha just another stupid crush.come-ON!me and lit teacher.TTS LIKE WAAYYY WRONG.I mean its just,it will never be!haha finally im awake!its just a look away thin u noe..OOO and i think sometimes me and Expired Milk SOMETIMES have like the same thinkin and taste.Lemme repeat tt again,SOMETIMES.haha if u disagree,feel free 2 tell me yea.Don worry cos normally when things are like this happen,we are just meant 2 be good friends.muahaahaha.like eversince i noticed this one girl i found her like cute and stuff.Shes like the 1st person i wld see when im on the bus each morning when it reaches Dover MRT.she has an innocent look.then i found out she was in expired milk's class.and from there i guesssed tt it was her.haha.yeayea..for now..im goin 2 snooZZZe..
Tuesday, May 1, 2007 '
HEE.Went out with Expired milk yesterday.DAMN was it b-o-r-i-n-g.haha maybe its nt for her but in some way 4 me.cos like we didnt really talk much.she was talking 2 her friend and her friend was talking 2 her,soo yea i kinda gave up on talking,just enjoyed the sights.haha.but at least we went out,if nt i'd have 2 be cooped up at home..haha.Then my friend who was mith me was like,"u didnt even talk 2 her."HEY HOW was i suppose 2 talk?she was talkin 2 her friend her friend was talkin 2 her..and besides,i dunnoe wad 2 talk aboout=Phehe. yea i found myself boring yesterday.cos im like goin 2 hv pms and i feel kinda moody.but usually im like madd wen i go out with friends.haha soo yea,dont presume im like tt all the time after yesterday!
oh yea and i finally bought a cap.haha u noe those cadet caps.yea i think they're cool.
urrgh ok i totally forgot wad i wanted 2 say.
