Monday, March 31, 2008 '
GAH.ya noe life is like a sope,and now its like the draggy parts of some sort.
i cant believe this myself but im hating my life.These few days i get damn frustrated wen smthings up.I really dunnoe wad goin on..i feel apart of me is missing,torn apart.
i really dunnoe wad 2 say and do anymore.
Saturday, March 29, 2008 '
Life is such a let down,
you just expect too much out of it.
When something just doesn't happen,
you feel like everything is about to go down with you.
But truth is,what don't kill you make you stronger.
So with this,atashiwa tomodachi,
I do not care anymore.
I feel tired.I feel demoralised.I just don't know what 2 feel anymore.Its always been like that.Sometimes I really dont feel like facing up2 reality.
im really so sick so sick so sick and i hate you.
hahaha ok that was from tokyo jihen
Thursday, March 27, 2008 '
YAY just finished malay blog.hahaha everyday have 2 write man..but its for my own good ar..
hmm 2day nearly picked a fight ok..grr ok dun wanna talk about it...
and 2day suppose 2 meet FIT but she didnt like reply my msg and calls,soo i went HOME!
gay la..ok erm tts it i guess..
and 2morow will be our 1st wanked out practice in the loo!!hahaha wad a place 2 practice!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 '
2day was gay.gaygaygaygaygay.oh wad happened?OH YA.
it was kinda boring 2day,untill I cant even remember what really happened at school.After school went 2 meet FIIIIIIT AND BEVVVVV.=D
went kfc,and BEV treated!aww ur such a sweet girl,thank you you=D
Den we played with the creatables candyy thing..hahah kissykissy muak muak..
and i NEARLY..nehmind..scared she FREAKED! out.=D
i was thinkin of doin MEG & DIA fer the talentquest thing..i mean if we are still doing it..my nose is damn stuck and i sing kinda weird..hahahha
cant wait fer the class buskin thing!my CAJON!!the magical box!!wootz!!
and that jamming session with VERA LAU and her ROLEMODEL!hahaha
zzzz
Labels: fascini CREATABLES kiss candy jamming crap
Friday, March 21, 2008 '
EEUUGHH i feel sick..
better then yesterday though,i had this huge headache.and just now when i blew my nose,there was abit of blood on my mucus.eee.haha i remembered what a cajon is!haha i hope i'll be playin it during our class fundraising.i really want to..
This rainy evening,I wish I had you by my side.Weird though,just who are you?
I really do not know,but this "warm" feeling serves as something that can make me feel better.
I really feel sick and tired,
thank goodness mostly physically.
Emotionally,I feel that I have to go for whatever comes in my way.
I have to face it,for me to break out of this shell.
I wish that at this time,
I could go.
Just go somewhere of that I do not know.
I want to be in your embrace,but when i do,
I'm scared that I would not be able to let go.
OOO nt bad nt bad..haha hmm need more bks..heehee=D
so sick..D=
Saturday, March 15, 2008 '
Jumble mumble fundamentals.
What the hell am I feeling,
man I need ideation.
I wish there was some kind of spreading mindmap that I could paste it all on.
Wait,it already exists,here,
in what I thought was an empty shell.
Truth is,I feel my emotions running around.
Not wildly,but randomly.
HAHA.man when will i stop this?its like creating more rubbish?
NO!Seriously i dunnoe waads into me rite now.I really cant explain it.Or maybe dun want to.GRRRR.
hahha just now,i was napping and i had "a weird dream" again.
this time,was like walkin home,then i saw a lady had dropped her groceries.soo i helped her and smhow ended up goin her hs..
den dunnoe la it was damn gay.....
AHHHHH 2morow's the concert yo!hahaha im hvin butterflies=)
Don't tear me down,for all I need.
Make my heart a better place,give me something I can believe.
Don't tear me down,I'm far from the door now,
I'll let it go.
Make it fade away,don't break me down.
Save me from my fears...
Labels: poetic crap
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 '
HAHA 2day i went out with my bro again..do my IC!!!
before tt we went far east to eat.then went 2 cut hair!!hahaha.
i know i just trimmed my hair,now i hv spiky hair again..i think its ok..
And now,Im like folding stars.And i dun hv paper.sian=_="
Its a package that comes with a daisy,its for a surprise on saturday..
Ya know wad,I dun care about anythin la..i just wanted 2 give this 2 her and surprise her?haha.i know she wont be touched by it,but at least i know i did smthing..
I feel as bad now tryna avoid her and stuff..I shld just face up 2 reality.okok hmm im hvin inspiration la..
I sit here in this solitary moment.
At that point,I just don't know why I felt like a part of me was being torn apart.
But after awhile,I realised that life is'nt about getting what you want.
At that point,I realised that I should'nt cower myself away.
I should just face up to it.
At that point,I felt contented just being there with the always laughing,smiling figure..
HMMM okla er tts all..
actually no point doin wad i just did just now!haha paiseh=_=
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 '
I do not know where it is right now,
and I do not know where am I right now.
Weird thing is,I don't feel lost at all.Its like I've always felt this way.
I don't feel that its bad,or its making me sad.
Or is it?See,I prefer to be lost rather than contemplate.
I'm just a fallen star,that gets picked up and drifts away.
I'm happy being drifted away,I'm happy that I get lost,
but when I start to sink,don't pull me down further.
Just pick me up,let me drift,
and get lost.
EHH not bad..improving improving...haha need 2 read more poetry and stuff la.Im developing an intrest in poetry?=O
And 2 LFB,dont be sorry la ok..im just not feeling so erm,me?
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HOOOIIII 5 MORE DAYS NEH!!
DUBDUB DUBDUB DDDDDDDDDUUUUUBBBBBB.
haha ok forget that.Anyways yesterday went out with Shan.=)heehee finally?
haha ok la i dun really wanna go into it now..makes me feel..hmm..i dunnoe>.<
haha 2day me and my bro went for busride adventoirs!we went all the way 2 Changi Airport just 2 eat BK.
erm ok thats all?haha wait i post again.
Sunday, March 9, 2008 '
Brr so cold.i wish i had someone 2 hug me..HAHA.
anyways 2morow ive got a date with her.muahahaha yay.
im like findin info on rivers fer geog hmwork and now im findin movies 2 watch haha.
ANOTHER 7 MORE DAYS!!y is my heart beating so fast everytime i listen 2 kaze no mai??
At least my heart dosent beat so fast wen i think of her.
GAH.
Friday, March 7, 2008 '
THE HOLS ARE HERE!!yea man!eventhough its only 1 week with alot of hmwork,at least its smthing.=D
soo anyway..
i got my cancelled date back on monday?hahaha no art museum.
fer some reason,i really felt that i needed 2 get this off my chest.
well,2day rite,her bf joined band,yet again la.so im like OH THANK GOD!!cos i heard he pro la.den like at least now our section got 3 ppl.and just now i was like alone cos she had detention.haha.but at the back of my head rite,im like,im gonna be a loner yet again!haha im used 2 it in band la.always like tt one.
den she came.ok so im like wadever as always.da da da den wen start playin,she was like,i cant hear uuu.fine la i play louder.den she took her pencil and wrote on my sheet,i know u can do it=D.
WTH.haha i cant explain the feelin at tt time.
But BOTTOMLINE ISS....i don't like her as in LIKE ya noe wad im sayin..
like,okla like her as a friend.anyway if i liked her in tt kind of LIKE,shes just not my bag of chips hun.like seriously.
ok erm tts all fer 2nite..i'll post more soon.
9 more days!!!MacRitchie reservoir!!OMGGGG.
