Saturday, May 31, 2008 '
Moooovieee saturdayy!haha erm i watched August Rush,Sweeney Todd and JUNO!
hahaha Juno's the best,August Rush touched me(musically??=_=")
erm i stopped Sweeney Todd halfway.
Juno Juno Juno!!haha i liked it.eventhough it likes shows about teen pregancy but I dunnoe..its just nice and cute and the songs kinda rock.
And Ellen Page is cute.haha i dunnoe her character's kinda cool.
haha and one cute reaction was when she was like "I dunnoe,Im just losing my faith to humanity!"
hahaha erm ook tts all..
You're just so nice,it broke my heart?
I have a bunny suit and I think I look cute.Labels: juno erm ahh ooo tmeesannaw
Friday, May 30, 2008 '
I promised not to anymore.
I don't want to anymore.
I want to erase you.
Even if I cant,I dont want you to be in my head.
I tried very hard but I got myself into a situation,
and now I cant think.
I just want to see you.
Well maybe its true,
Im caught up on you.
But its just the truth that its just empty hopes and dreams.
Did I really promise myself,
or did i just try to deceive myself.I just want to see you,I really do.
Labels: hmms maybe jay sean wthhhh
Wednesday, May 28, 2008 '
I really do,I really do need you now.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm just on the verge of breaking down.
I keep telling myself not to cry,but I really didnt know what to do now.
Everything is just all mixed up and jumbled up and I just dont know.
This always has to happen.
I just wanna crawl into my bed and dream.
Thats all I can do.
I really do,I really do want to see you,
because you are my aid.Labels: secondhand serenade gah yldabTMeesannaw
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 '
The sound of the melodica filled my ears.
It was moving,and I felt that I had to move along with it,
just like how the counter melody follows.
It got me hypnotized.
Just like how you captured my attention.
It mesmerizes me that much,I just don't know what words to use.
Help me,help me forget about all the troubles that I'm soon going to face.
I want to,want to see you,but I promised myself to erase you.
I know,oneday,oneday I will.
I don't care how stupid I feel anymore,
neither will I repeat the stupid things Iv'e done.
But please,I think I really need your aid now,
and I'm wishing your'e reading this.
I still feel rather stupid,but I don't care anymore,
because I always am.
Labels: simoun melodicaaa TMeesannaw
Sunday, May 25, 2008 '
ok like woah!tt was a long one.haha i didnt know where it came from.duh frm the bottom of my heart?hahah ok im feelin a lil bit random.
but seriously uh situation at hm is like grrr luh.i dunnoe luhhhhh!!
OH YA!IM SUPPOSE 2 BLOG BOUT COLUMBUS PIC!
yala now june hols already,but i just got the pic,THKS 2 my HANNAH MONTANAH!
hahah erm hmm things to say?my face cant be seen and aubrey looks constipated.hahaha erm i guess tts all..
yea..niteniteLabels: gah COLUMBUS08=DD
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Its been sometime,sometime.
I remembered how stupid I felt for doing all those stupid things.
I just wasted my life without having to have the end product.
Seriously,I just laughed it off.
But it feels lke you're still fresh at the back of my mind.
It just feels like I needed to let the constellations pass,
and reach out for whats waiting for me.
Its a scary world out there,but somehow,in some weird way,
the thought of you made it ok for me.
I know it dosen't make sense,
I know it sounds kind of absurd too.
But thats just how I feel,
and its just selfish to have something you can't have for your own,right?
And thats just how life goes dosen't it.
Everything can't just stay the same as they do.
A wave's bound to come at the unexpected moments.
So I have to carry on against the waves with whatever support I can get.
I know it dosen't make sense,
I know it sounds absurd,
but I do want to see you again.
Until someday,I hope to hear your words.
But what words?
You know,I hate that note,cos it was written for you.
Labels: TMeesannaw gah grr ooo
Saturday, May 24, 2008 '
i hate home.its always been like this.gd things happen and when a bad things comes along and tumbles everything down.
but im nt all the same anymore.
Ive got stronger and i hv to.
just like how i got through the expeditions.at first i laughed when i thought of it.but hey,its kinda the same.i just hv 2 get through this like i did.
soo yea im still gonna CHIONNNNGGG no matter wad.
eventhough im down,i need to bring myself up,
my eyecandy.
Friday, May 23, 2008 '
GAHHH DAMN PISSED CAN!i mean im nt pissed bout my results cos i noe its kinda my fault.but i mean these few days,shes kinda acting weird again and i kinda predict shes gonna be her old self soon.and like y does she hv 2 parrot out wads commented about me.and after tt she says things that dosent hv any relations 2 school work!and she dosent even like noe luhh..i dunnoe im just soo ticked off.
but anyways im tryin nt 2 think bout tt and just remember bout my earlier plans,TO CHIONG DO HMWORK AND STUDYYYY!!haha i wanna do reading tooo..thks 2 the kawaii group CHATMONCHY!!im able 2 carry on and enjoy!weee!
oh and i heard tt she is cmin back.haha i dunnoe,i wanna see her but i dont!i mean i dunnoe.hahaha.
Thursday, May 15, 2008 '
I felt like I really had a bad bad screw up.
Something was screwed up somewhere,eventhough I covered it with a perfect act.
But it all sounds so cliched,so I'm throwing it away.
Its just selfish to want something that you can't have,for your own.
Nothing even happened,but you can have you back.
Now,I just want me back.
I lost myself,and I need to find me back.
I'm taking my wings outside,cos I can't fly them in here.
What I had was a broken mirror.
But now,it's getting clearer.
Labels: alkaline triogdbye4ever poetic crap
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GAH.i feel so tired.i dunnoe y but i just wanna sleep the day away.
i feel kinda demoralised,i did quite badly fer the midyears.
but im still trying 2 hang on strong,just like how i did during the hike.
im gonna unleash whats yet to be unleashed of me.
hahah ok im jus being random again,but im serious man!!u noe its always easy 2 slack but nvr easy 2 get back on track again.it really takes up alot of me.i hv 2 be committed and be strong.
smtimes fer me 2 noe and the best place 2 start is during band!(of all places=_=" GAH!)
but yea im gonna start frm there luh..
Sunday, May 11, 2008 '
I saw you,a vision of you.
I was too late to catch a glimpse of you.
Missing you,I cried.
I didn't really know why I did.
My eyes just felt a sting and my cheeks felt the cold moistened my cheeks.
I know it sounds absurd.
Maybe it's just me,being foolish and naive.
I felt shattered.
But then I saw you again,your calm hard face.
I wish that it could be,but it would just be foolish,naive and selfish,
to want what you can't have for your own.
Maybe it's just me,but I do wish that we would get to talk.
Each time I try to make an attempt,I cower away in fear and himiliation.
I just have nothing to say in this bleak situation.
But until someday,I'll be waiting to hear your words.
I hate that note,because it was written for you.
Labels: last song secondhand serenade poetic crap missinmt
Saturday, May 10, 2008 '
COLUMBUS READY!COLUMBUS PULL!!
yeap im back frm OBS and it rocked my fairfield socks off!!
haha its the best camp ive had in fairfield so far luh..
best part is,we were all mixed up frm different classes.eventhough like some of em already knew each other,we still didnt know each other tt well.
haha when we thought we wld be dead cos we dont seem 2 get along,we ended up being the "highest" group 2 jump and scream and sing and giving each other names and walking arnd with the nametags.
there were 7 girls 8 boys i think.lets see
The girls-
Cherilyn
Phoebe
Jacquelin
Olivia
Suan Fong
Shoo wen
ME!
The guys-
Aubrey
Ben
Caleb
Clinton
Dylan
Joshua
Maverick
Ying yang(dunnoe how 2 spell>.<)
The cute instructor-
Cindy!(looks like ng may gay!!)
Yea man she really does,just tt she smiles more and says "columbus look at your cute cindy here!*GRINS*"
haha soo anyway it was fun and tiring at the same time.because of the support tt we gave each other,we were able to make it through.
we kayaked for arnd 14km and hiked fer 9 hours cos we stopped fer a break quite alot of times.but we made it we made it we made it!!i cant belive i made it.
erm ok soo tts all fer now will write more.ciao!
Missing you,I cried.
Labels: OBS columbus'08 missinmt
Sunday, May 4, 2008 '
Caressed my soul that's what you did.
You keep appearing in dreams,I just don't know why.
I just don't have the strength to let you know.
My heart rushes when you turn.
Maybe it's just me.
But I like the way you brush your hair,
and I like those stylish clothes you wear,
and I can see you way over there.
For now,it's another night tongue tied,
and waiting for an answer.
Ahhhh 2morow is OBS!!5 days of hell?hahaha
i dun feel like goin can??hmm soo erm yea tts all fer now,will write in again on sat?haha and yea ive started on my compilation and you noe,
i tend 2 get inspiration frm weirdest places.haha tata!
If my life was a storybook,we'd meet again and talk oneday.
Labels: maybe ride wit me poetic crap
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Wow 1 more day 2 OBS!!i hope my period will subside like it always does.=D
soo anyway ive roughly packed my stuff and yea i think im ready.
but im still nt ready about the "getting over" process.I also dunnoe y i felt(still feeling)sad..anyway in dedication,im gonna do a compilation fer her.its the only way i can put my literary skills and expressiveness in??hahaha crap.i think what i write is crap.tts y i call it poetic crap.but heck its fer my own use.=P
erm ok tts all..
My cheeks felt the cold razorblades run down.
Why,i wondered.
All the words we never say,are just kept inside.
I took the chance.
Took the chance of letting you know.
And there's no sense in playing games,
as now my head tries to shake away all the pain.
And now its over,its over,why is it over?
Why now,I wish I could take it back?
I tend to cower back eventhough I took a brave and stupid step forward.
But now its over,its over,already over.
I just wanna crawl into bed and throw away all the things,but I won't let it die.
For now,I know eventhough when I'm falling apart,you'll appear to put me back in place.
I wish that I could take it back.
Labels: its not over secondhand serenade poetic crap
Friday, May 2, 2008 '
Fridayyyyyyy!!!
monday is OBS!!!yayyy!!
actually i dunnoe whether 2 feel excited or nt la,cos yea its like during my "monthly bestfriend" time..grrr.
at least it started 2 day.haha.sooo erm yea another poetic crap below.
sooo erm i guess 2day's the last la..hahaha just now damn funny during eng class.Pei,Soh,Kuek help me folded the hearts den folded damn alot ok,like occupied the whole table.hahahhaa after cut all the hearts,we ended up with filling half a packet.THANKS GUYS!hahaha
and Pei,just now was scary la k,she walk past and saw!!ahahahaha 2day walk past alot of time(2day's the most)hahahhha yala damn high ahhahahaha
im hearing UNGU!right now..haha oso dunnoe y tryna get into the moodddd
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I never saw your smile,
till it was time to go away.And it's just too late.
Too late for what?
I have just realised how naive I can get.
But your presence has given me that inspiration.
It has taught me to be brave,no matter where I'll go.
I'll just close my eyes,just close them,when mr D swings by.
I just know that it will come,but I just drowned in my own ego and naivety.
Without realisation,you(unknown) has set me(the unknown) free.
We've barely met and still I cross the street to your door.
Your'e my eyecandy.
