Friday, November 28, 2008 '
Iv'e been thinking and I realised that I'm really stupid.Its just been another case of infatuation with the oh so totally wrong person.She ain't my bag of chips,and I feel so slow just realising that now.I seriously have no clue of what is wrong in this current picture.Its kinda hard to explain,but I came up with a theory.We may not be the same type of people,but we do have our similarities.Oh well then,this just sucks.I still love you straight girl,like how you say you love me
BLEH!xPLabels: the oh randomness
Monday, November 17, 2008 '
My heart raced for awhile that day.I'm supposed to be angry,but I don't know for what reason.From what I've known,I no longer and am not planning to have those kind of thoughts about you.Because it's just going to be so pointless and I might just be hurt.Even now,sometimes I do get hurt because sometimes I just give in to my feelings.Most of the time I just tried to be cold.I must be strong.Strong like the amazon.It dosen't matter if it sounds corny,cos now everything's just corny to me.Gosh gimme a break.I can't always be sticking to one perspective cos from what I've learnt over the months is just so unpredictable.I should start taking the advice.The advice that says that I should'nt be putting so much hope in something cos I'll end up like crap.
My heart raced for awhile that day.
And now I'm feeling stupid and some what ashamed.
I'll get through this,soon.. Labels: random gay stoopid gah
Monday, November 10, 2008 '
The rush of hormones,as we felt the gush of youth in our bodies.It was so wrong,yet felt so right.It felt as if there was an itch,that was longing to be scratched.With moist and trembling lips,we came in contact.As soon as I knew it,the hotness and bittersweet taste filled my mouth.I felt as if I blew all that was on my mind away.No feeling that certain people bring you down,and that it was hard to relate and socialise.This might be running through the heads of some adolescents.Or maybe its just me.This adolescent that has no sense of self esteem when it comes to certain things."Being thick-skinned is what I'm trying to do",she said.Hoping that it will give a boost and change her mindset on certain things.More courageous,more confident.To make the big mistakes now and to perfect it.Though words of encouragement are being given and such,she's still unsure.Because words can be just a form of manipulation,and that people might just say things just for the sake of it.It may just be true though sometimes,but you can't get too comfortable with anything that's been given to you.To care,to let someone know you care,to hear that there's someone caring for you,what does all that exactly mean?For a situation this thought provoking,maybe it should just be left just the way it is.That's just part and parcel of growing up.It's easy to say,but seems kind of hard to be part of the whole actual drama.
